It's been some time since I've written. I'm on the cusp of second degree initiation but there's a pretty significant roadblock. The OTA is a ceremonial outfit and therefore requires more than my usual ritual setup. For the longest time, I've been laying out an altar cloth and lighting some candles on my coffee table before settling in for my exercises but that won't work anymore. I'm at a point where in order to continue on my path I need to have a temple setup. The road I'm on is a road of discovery and recovery. Every step I've taken in life has been leading up to this and I need to see it through for my own benefit and for the people that I love. I sometimes forget that I was once subjected to true cruelty that ended up causing the people in my life to suffer as collateral damage and that's not fair. God has some explaining to do and only through perfection of spirit am I going to get back to that place where I can finally ask God why. The only way that's going to happen is if I take the initiative and follow through, even when that means stretching my abilities and crafting these ritual tools out of wood and hardware.
The Altar Manifest
The Altar Manifest
The Altar Manifest
It's been some time since I've written. I'm on the cusp of second degree initiation but there's a pretty significant roadblock. The OTA is a ceremonial outfit and therefore requires more than my usual ritual setup. For the longest time, I've been laying out an altar cloth and lighting some candles on my coffee table before settling in for my exercises but that won't work anymore. I'm at a point where in order to continue on my path I need to have a temple setup. The road I'm on is a road of discovery and recovery. Every step I've taken in life has been leading up to this and I need to see it through for my own benefit and for the people that I love. I sometimes forget that I was once subjected to true cruelty that ended up causing the people in my life to suffer as collateral damage and that's not fair. God has some explaining to do and only through perfection of spirit am I going to get back to that place where I can finally ask God why. The only way that's going to happen is if I take the initiative and follow through, even when that means stretching my abilities and crafting these ritual tools out of wood and hardware.